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Maybe
posted on Saturday, August 30 @ 10:43 PM | permalink
Maybe I should just disappear and MIA until the day of deadline then you guys will start to panic about what to do, how to do and actually start on doing the project willingly and submit work on time huh?So one member acts like a ghost, attends meetings and does talk and contribute a little, but when I get you to do work there's no reply. Then another one. One that I actually trusted on her abilities and our 2 years of being in the same project groups now start to give me crap work and doesn't even reply. Then the last one, keeps saying can I do this, can I do that but gives last minute work and quality is just average. Can I slap all of you to wake up? -.- Say I do last minute work. Fuck you. Who's the one complaining that I'm not starting on the project and now the one whose not doing work properly? 5 hours. 5 fucking hours and all you came up with is one and a half page of copy and paste word document. Can I ask what the fuck is the use of it? I might as well come up with a paragraph of words myself in 30 minutes. Then maybe you wanna try doing the fucking cost tear down which you have so much fucking comments about. I spend 5 hours doing cost tear down while you can't even finish a paragraph of words. What the fuck is wrong with you? And now you don't even reply whatsapp. Awesome. I shall see what fucked up excuse you have for not replying. By then I'll let you have a taste of what it feels like being betrayed by someone you can trust. Special
posted on Sunday, August 10 @ 2:48 PM | permalink
A post for my dearest sister, Weiting, for her birthday!
We've been friends for years, this year being the 7th year, and I was really glad we got to meet. Because like we weren't even in the same class but miraculously we still ended up in the same class (we are "meant to be" xD) and sitting beside each other. I can't remember who started talking first (but it probably is you because I'm so quiet in the past) because it was so awkward between us. But we clicked so well and then all of a sudden we are complaining how shit HYSS is and how good our primary schools are and the friendship just started itself. The most epic conversation would be the father, grandfather and blah blah which I don't even remember why we started on it! But it was super hilarious, mixing up the generations and the guys behind commenting that we laugh like machine guns and I remember it was during Mr Shiv's math lesson, like nobody ever listens to him. HAHAHA. It's a no wonder we scored that bad during lower sec since we are always talking, always doing something stupid and always laughing. I still remember when we tried to eat lesser during recess for weight loss, but we ended up eating the chicken rice with extra rice because it's free!
I still remember that our worst time was during sec 2, when we got outcasted by almost half of the class because of my blog. But I was really grateful that you stuck with me and we got through it together. I can never be anymore grateful to you for that period of time. And the best thing was when we were able to go for the Japan exchange trip together! It was a short trip but nevertheless the most memorable one so far with all the things that happened, especially when we were in the hotel and you forgot your stuffs when you went to bath and yeah whatever happened next. ;)
I think the thing I wanna do most is to do a duet with you because like we've talked about it so many times during choir but we haven't actually done one. So yes, I'm looking forward to the day when we ACTUALLY do a duet together. c:
Although we are in different polys and sometimes I wouldn't see you as much as I would see the others, but we know our friendship hasn't become bland, just that it went on to a different level. I know I can still talk to you about anything and everything, and you know you can too to me. Even if there's nothing to say, we can just bask in the silence between us. It's not awkward and we know that.
You're like the mummy in our clique, scolding and lecturing whenever needed but you're still a 19 year-old after all. Please act like our age when you should and stop being so auntie at most times please! HAHA You know there's always the other 4 of us, ready to spend time for any one of us. You know you can do the adventurous stuffs with me, maybe not hiking with leeches (I am definitely not giving my blood to leeches ._.), but yeah other more fun stuffs that you can name of and I am willing to try. HAHA And then we will just spend most of our time bullying Kaiwen and that's like the most fun thing to do ever which you will agree with me. :P
And I'm still waiting for the day that you are actually gonna have a real boyfriend and I'm gonna be like who's the dude who can actually steal your heart and if you don't have one, we shall just stay single together since I can't stick to one guy forever. HAHAHA
Lastly...
Happy 19th birthday to you, auntie Weiting!
P.S. I hope you cry while reading xD
P.P.S I love you :3
P.P.P.S. If I can use those emoticons in WA in here, I'm gonna be spamming them in here HAHAHA
Pissed
posted on Saturday, August 9 @ 3:20 PM | permalink
Maybe I should find some time and just shout into your face, telling you that you are merely a friend or even classmate to me.
Not good friends, just a friend. Not someone that I would gladly do anything for. Just because we have similar thoughts, does not means that we are like twins. You don't have the tiniest idea of what's going on in my mind. And you wouldn't want to know, cos it's too fucking gross for you to know.
Because I am so pissed, and yes I still am pissed whenever I think of what happened yesterday morning. But no, I'm not that petty, just that I just so sincerely hate you to the core that whatever you do, irks me.
I do remember stating that I have morning temper. So it's best to leave me alone during mornings, unless you have urgent stuffs and talk to me in a nice manner. My morning temper really sucked to the core and I'm really a bitch in the morning.
You should learn to have some control over your mouth and hands though. Like when the fuck have I ever done last minute work for projects? Like never. I don't do things at last minute. You, for god's sake, worked with me for two audit projects. Have I ever done last minute work? NO. I work on a smooth flow, not too fast, not too slow. I myself, hate working last minute because that meant staying up late and no I can't stay up late at nights so I don't ever finish things at the last minute. And you this retarded woman say you don't want us doing last minute work, when there's like what? 1 whole month to the deadline? Are you kidding me?
By next tuesday, we are gonna be done with all other modules except MACC. We have like what? 3 whole weeks to complete a 12-page report. I think it's sufficient time to write one page per day. So I don't see where your fucked-up logic comes into place. What? Your weekends are precious, so other peoples' weekends ain't precious? If you can only trust that much in me, why don't you just fuck off?
And your hands, your bloody disgusting fucking hands. Will you stop touching me with them? Because I don't wanna get strangled in the morning by you again. And ohhh, you thought I was worried about the fucking project. Bitch, I'm not you. I'm not in the least worried about MACC right at this point of time. Because there's nothing to be worried about. Of all times, you just have to strangle me in the morning when I did nothing wrong. Like what? YOU were the one who told me to get the lot. So I went to get it. It's just that we are the first group to present. Where the fuck is the bad in that? You fucking get it done and over with.
Oh you didn't wanted to be the first group? Then why didn't YOU go get the lot yourself? You might be lucky enough to get the second or third, whatever bullshit sequence you wanted. I don't see the need to strangle me and shake me as though I deserved to be beheaded. I might have tolerated slaps, but not strangling. Not when you strangled me that hard and shook me back and front so fucking hard. I would have slapped you across the face if I didn't have enough tolerance. And no, I don't want to scare my classmates yeah? And I strongly emphasize on this: it's the fucking morning. Why do you strangle people in the fucking morning? Why must you ruin my morning with your retarded thinking?
If you thought I'm easy just because I'm small, I'll fucking prove you wrong in the face bitch. Because I am not and I will make sure you regret trying to act chummy chummy with me, because EWW, they were really disgusting.
I'm not sorry for the amount of vulgarities in here, because I am really fucking pissed with that bitch. And yes, I am a hypocrite to certain people. Don't give me all the hypocrite bullshits because, we all know that we've been there and done that. I'm a hypocrite to certain people while I can do anything for certain people. To me, people like her isn't worth my time. So I don't give a fuck what actually happens to her. Dead or alive. And I do curse. Doesn't mean you never heard me curse so I don't curse. I hate to curse. But I give my all when I'm really pissed. Like right this instance.
Now I'm done ranting. Okay. Back to mugging.
Relying
posted on Sunday, August 3 @ 9:41 AM | permalink
Some times I wonder if I'm putting on too much of a strong front. Because it seems like I am when people questions me as though I have all the answers to everything. I'm tired. Like I really am.I'm not a genius. I mug when there's tests and I have expectations to keep up with. And it's fine if you question me. But it's totally not fine when you doubt my answers. What's the point of asking me when you doubt me? For confirmation? I feel like I'm not respected. And I have been really worn out for the past few days that it feels horrible everyday. Yet, I have people who takes me for granted. I'm not your mummy. Sure I look small, I may seem easy but I'm not. I just want to live like myself. As compared to being relied and depended on, I would very much prefer to rely and depend on others. I can be independent. But I do still love the feeling of depending on others. It's like I don't have anything to worry about. I'm just so disappointed. And everything is so jumbled up, up side down. I don't feel like giving a damn to anyone right now. Simply because, they don't appreciate it. Yet, someone had the nerves to complain when he himself wasn't around the whole noon when the group was discussing. Who do you think you are, you prick head? |