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Relying
posted on Sunday, August 3 @ 9:41 AM | permalink
Some times I wonder if I'm putting on too much of a strong front. Because it seems like I am when people questions me as though I have all the answers to everything. I'm tired. Like I really am.I'm not a genius. I mug when there's tests and I have expectations to keep up with. And it's fine if you question me. But it's totally not fine when you doubt my answers. What's the point of asking me when you doubt me? For confirmation? I feel like I'm not respected. And I have been really worn out for the past few days that it feels horrible everyday. Yet, I have people who takes me for granted. I'm not your mummy. Sure I look small, I may seem easy but I'm not. I just want to live like myself. As compared to being relied and depended on, I would very much prefer to rely and depend on others. I can be independent. But I do still love the feeling of depending on others. It's like I don't have anything to worry about. I'm just so disappointed. And everything is so jumbled up, up side down. I don't feel like giving a damn to anyone right now. Simply because, they don't appreciate it. Yet, someone had the nerves to complain when he himself wasn't around the whole noon when the group was discussing. Who do you think you are, you prick head? |