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2015
posted on Tuesday, December 30 @ 2:41 PM | permalink
Tomorrow is the last day of 2014, which means we are going into 2015 very soon. This year has passed so fast honestly but it also felt like I've done a lot this year as well. Running marathon, donating blood, removing wisdom tooth, passing the driving practical test, running and deciding on a university to continue after graduation next year.I've done quite a lot of thinking as well throughout this year. A lot of happenings got on my nerves every other days. A lot of things seem different and have changed, yet a lot of things still seem to be the same. Some times I wonder if it would be better just to grow old with pets rather than with humans. Because pets are easier to take care of than humans. I don't have to think what to cook for my pet for its meals since there's pet food. I don't have to worry about loyalty and judgements. There are tons of things that I don't have to worry about being with pets than humans. Of course there are some things that human can give while pets cannot. I can feel myself changing, especially much of my thinkings. What I felt was very important and necessary in the past, doesn't seems the same anymore. It used to be very hard for me to let go of people who have left. I used to wonder what is it that parents really want from their off-springs. Just recently, I finally realised what they want. And I've decided to let go of those whom I should stop thinking about. Don't ask me how; I think it defers between people and I cannot explain why either. I'm thankful to myself to have changed for the better, as well as the people around me who made me think. Thank you for helping me grow up in 2014 and I look forward to 2015. Confident
posted on Saturday, December 6 @ 8:13 PM | permalink
Yeap, ever since I've cultivated a habit to go to the gym to run, I've started to be more confident of myself, and more importantly, of my body.I was never confident of my own body, before or after the weight loss. After the weight loss, I felt good for a moment but it was never enough. Because my lower body is still filled with fats, especially tummy and thighs. I swear they are every I came across an article on facebook a few days ago, the title was talking about Sistar's Soyu being very confident of her body. I mean like why not? If I have her body, I'll be like strutting and flaunting it all around. Because why not? Her body is to die for. Unfortunately no, I don't have her body sadly. Anyways, that article really motivated and inspired me, although our exercise routines are totally different. She lifts while I run. But I guess I'll just make do with running because I really have zero interest in lifting. HAHAHA But it's okay, I've decided to join muay thai during university so I can further tone my legs. I'll be waiting to see the end results after 2 years muahaha. Honestly, I've never felt even better of myself in 19 years of my life. Now I'm thankful to myself, to being able to start running, turn running into a habit and anticipating to run now. I remember during the previous stay over with my clique, when Weiting and I were walking to Jingwen's house and talking about how we would love to live at Lakeside because we can run along the river at Lakeside. That's like more than 5km, I think? Then Weiting started to say that she came to run with Shiling the last time and that I rejected the offer immediately when she asked me that time. I was like oh well, that was like 2 or 3 years ago? I don't even like to exercise at that time HAHAHA. And now, 3 years later, I'll be the first to suggest or agree to such activities. Thanks to myself changing for the better and feeling better. :) |