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FRIENDS
posted on Sunday, June 2 @ 8:50 PM | permalink
Yeah. Friends. I decided to talk about friends and studies because my mom was being a nag about these when we were on our way home from grandma's house.I'm a Roleplayer on Facebook. I have done it for about 2 years; I started when I was 16, during June. Honestly, I never regretted joining roleplaying (RP). In fact, I enjoyed the precious friendships I had in RP. I have people on there just wanting to make new friendships, and I have a few very important friends that came from RP. Chicken, I call her chicken because she loves eating chicken and she calls me Bacon because I'm roleplaying Baekhyun from EXO-K, is important to me. Because I always complain to her about stuffs and she always complain to me about hers too. It's like we are complain buddies with a deeper friendship in between. Dina, my twinnie because we have the same birth dates in real life and we have known each other for quite a long time already. Pigrobot, who always manages to cheer me up with all her craziness and clumsiness. Daughty, who is always so cute in expressing herself although she is older than me by two year in real life. And this two cousins of which one of them is my boyfriend and the other one tried to flirt with me to get the boyfriend jealous. I hated them at first, but well, I like being with them. And a lot more who left deep impressions on me. These friendships are rare. Because they are from all over the world! People, except my sisters, even though in the same class as me can't even understand me, can't even do something for me for nothing. But these friends gave me a lot. And honestly, I think my life will be so much more boring if it wasn't for these friends. Yet, my mom said they are fake friends. Do fake friends do cards and mail them to you? Do fake friends spend time listening to your craps and bullshits? At least they are better than people around me who try to get close to me for a motive. If they were fake friends, I wouldn't have bothered talking to them. I know what friends I have made. For your info, I didn't mean that ALL people in Singapore get close to others for a motive. But, honestly speaking, there are a lot of people like this in your life, don't you agree? But there's one thing I would like all the people that knows me in real life to know. I abuse my true friends, or friends that I am close with. Because I know that they will understand that it is my way of showing my love for them. But I will distant myself when there is someone I dislike. I try to be as polite or cold to people I dislike. And I honestly hate skinships with people I dislike. Next on, studies. So, I'm not trying to be a bragger and there are definitely people scoring better than me, I scored 9 points for my O levels and honestly, I think it's good enough, to able to get into almost any course that I like, after deducting 2 points off for CCAs. 7 points is good enough for entering any course I liked, during my time of graduation. Yet, my mom still says, I could have done better if I had not been spending time in RP. Seriously, I'm not like my brother, and I'll never be like him. I got into Accounting, isn't that fine? So what if I got all A1s? So what? I studied my ass off for what? It's not as though I can skip grades and classes. I, in the end, still goes through the same old routines as people who scored lousier than me. Might as well not study that hard, right? I have my plans for my future. I may look like a kid, or sound or act like one. But I can assure you, I know what I am doing. I get into Poly, not to study my ass off. It was to study and have fun. It wasn't a mission to become the best Accountant. Heck, it wasn't even my desired course. When I want to take up Finance elective, she asked why not continuing to study Accounting? Seriously? Four years of Accounting is enough. When I finally found something that I am interested in, why must you always stop me? Why don't you ever try controlling my brother's life? Because what? He's older than 21 years old? Honestly, I think he doesn't even knows how to think properly, or even maturely. You think you know everything, just because you are older than me. Yeah, I admit that you have seen much more than me. But you know nothing about the life that I'm going through now, because you're not me. You can't ever experience what I am going through because you are not me and that's why you can never understand me! What I am going through now is a different prospective as compared to what you have went through. Things change, people change, time changes too. How is it possible that everything will be the same? How is it possible that you know what I feel? If there ever is a chance to tell this to my mother, I think I will probably end up crying. LOL |