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posted on Saturday, January 30 @ 11:07 AM | permalink
Annyeong!!^^Sorry for the late post. I'm so so excited for tomorrow you know. Cause it's the day when I can finally see my Shining SHINee. I don't know if I'm able to buy the album and get the pass, but I'll do my best. So let's just hope I'm lucky enough tomorrow. Think I'm gonna turn up earlier. Wahaha Yesterday was a good day for me, I guess. Chem test was fine but I lost 5 marks for Geog just cause I forgot to label. ... After school played VB then ate and went Choir. After warm ups Ms Fu called Amanda and I out to lead the Choir while she test the newcomers. I realised that Ms Fu got more stricter this year. After we have finally finished revising One by One, gave them 10 minutes break and Ms Fu timed them also. 6 to 7 people were late and gave the Choir sort of a lecture on Time-keeping. After the lecture, Amanda and I continue on the Like an Eagle for a short while before Ms Fu took over. Choir ended and Sec 3 and 4s had to stay back. Talk talk talk and went home. Went minimart since E wanted to eat something. While walking home, the three of us were talking about Ms Fu's requirements. On the bus, I was thinking what I really want to achieve in Choir. Put aside the role of Student Conductor who has to lead the Choir, the only thing I want is to sing. Really, I never thought I would want to be when I joined Choir. The only thing on my mind is "I want to sing, to show people I can sing and to improve my singing." Now, with the role of "Student Conductor" on my shoulders, makes me difficult to breath. Firstly, I know nothing about piano. Not that I don't want to learn but I don't have the time to learn, I don't have the passion. Secondly, I couldn't tell the difference of sharp notes. Yesterday when Amanda said the Sopranoes sang their notes sharp, I replied "yeah" on the outside, whereas inside I was wondering, "It sounds all the same to me.". Then I realised how tough this role can be. And Amanda is only here until April. I'm scared, I'm stressed, I can feel myself changing and I don't want to. From a nobody to somebody, isn't a good experience. What am I changing for, why do I change, I'm looking for the answers. |